October is domestic violence month. Only recently that I begin to understand what women go through because of some experiences I had. There are shelters to help you. There are people standing by to help you make your escape. But you have to want to be free. Here is a power story about what believing God and taking action can do.
By Latosha Myers-Mitchell
THEN…
…AND NOW!!
October is Domestic violence awareness month. I have a passion for my job because I done been there and done that! Before I became a police I was with a fool that didn’t know I was a fool too. He punched me once in my face right between my eyes then ran off. (I don’t have the pics of what I done to him when I caught him) but God gave me the sense to get as far away from him as I could before he be in hell and I be in jail. So this poem came straight from my heart:
THE NIGHT
I have my eyes wide open
But I still can’t see
I wish this would stop happening to me
Why do I always pick this type of man
Knowing I can do better
I really can
I’ve been through this before
But I swear I’m not doing it anymore
This time won’t be like the last
I know I’ve said that in the past
But If Ican make it through the night
Everything will be alright
So where am I going to go
When I finally walk out the door
What will I do
Like he said, “Aint nobody gone want you”
I have no job, no money, no skills
And with 4 kids it’s bout to get real
Now that I say I’m leaving, he treats me like a queen
but what Royalty has no self esteem
I ‘m ashamed to talk to my family and friends
They don’t want to hear that same song again So I pretend like everything is good at home
But cant look my kids because they know whats going on
Everytime he has a bad day
I know where it’ll lead & what he’ll say
Slurred words I wouldn’t dare repeat
Praying he falls asleep or I’m getting beat
Black and blue from fights
But If I can make it through the night
Everything will be alright
Who am I? What have I become?
Have I forgot where I came from?
I used to be ambitious with a gleam in my eye
Now that light has gone out from the tears I cry
Denying myself a better life
Hoping one day he’ll make me his wife
Is it so wrong to want a mate
I’m ready now, I don’t want to wait
But If I can make it through the night
Everything will be alright
Lord this is my finally plea
I need you to listen to me
Please help me believe
That everything I’ve gone through
you’ve seen
And you’ve heard every word
Even though I don’t deserve
Show me the way
This time I promise I’ll obey
Softly I hear God say
If you can make it through the night
Everything will be alright
~Tosha